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Being so vulnerable that all raw emotions are felt. That I feel so uncomfortable.

And at the same time, I’m expressing myself.

When I hold myself from talking on things that matter to me, I feel my throat being constricted.

I made a decision a while back to always express my feelings, emotions and needs. This still scares the crap out of me today.

So I have the conversations where I express myself, sometime very poorly. Sometime it’s interpreted by the other in a total different way than I meant it, then friction happen, more difficult conversation happen.

I choose it all.

This also creates growth in relationship. As the unspoken gets spoken, this changes everything internally. I listen to myself and my needs. After years of ignoring myself in order to be a “good” person to everyone.

So here’s to vulnerability, uncomfortable moments, feeling all feelings, stepping into the unknown. 

Around 2019, I came across the 5 regrets of the dying. I choose to not have this regrets and  made my life decisions to not regret. The 2 dying regrets that come up here are:

3. I wish I’d had the courage to express my feelings.

1. I wish I’d had the courage to live a life true to myself, not the life others expected of me.

From my wild heart to yours

Tara

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